~ Be Back Soon ~

I am in my 2nd months of resting from Kids With A Mission ministry for my personal health reasons. A Lot of things had happened unexpectedly. It's beyond my imagination on how it came to be. The month of February was not really good. Is it because I was in my comfort zone? Is it because i had stopped doing things for Him?... Well, the answer still lies on me.. huh !

Every time I've heard something about my kids, especially the toddlers, there was this portion in my heart of excitement.. An excitement of seeing them again. I remember the naughty " MJ ", ang makulit na si "Lala ", pretty and lovable " Madeline ", witty " Jun - Jun ", the ever behaved " Lanie Jane" and many others... I've missed letting them sing " Baby Jesus, Baby Jesus, Please do'nt cry"... hehehe..

There was one Sunday afternoon where Pau had told me MJ was looking Teacher Jenny asking where Am I ??? .. Oh little MJ, I'll be back soon... the soonest time I would be OK holistically.. God has been so great in my life.. I cannot afford to let myself be selfish just because of my own personal crisis..

I'll be back soon K.W.A.M.

~ Adieu For A While K.W.A.M. ~

"Goodbye does not mean forever "as the saying goes. From the couple of days, I was struggling over my own personal crisis. I was not able to teach the kids in two weeks time. When I got my first challenge On Madeline, it was then followed by a very striking event in my life that hits the very core of my being. I was thinking everything is well, that I could carry it without going to the hospital. It all started with a fever & chill. I thought it was just an ordinary one where rest would be the best treatment but I was wrong, for it became worse when something on my skin appeared. It seemed like rushes but it was red and getting bigger. My fever turns on and off. And the best place to be with is to be admitted in the hospital. And so it does.. They brought me to it. I was getting dehydrated then and was very ill. I could not hold my emotions of felling I was in deep trouble. I was diagnosed with Viral Infection. A certain sickness that was caught from airborne, from one's bacteria to the other. I was just wondering where did I got it. And then I was in silent. Something's got me troubled. Was it from there? I though to myself. But the main reason was my immune system was getting weaker and weaker and weaker as what the doctor's had said. And it was again caused by another sickness, that is, my thyroid problem. It was few years already. And here it goes again... I thought it was all well. but it was really not ! ...

And here's the verdict. The best medication is REST ! I need to rest for my health reasons. First, to get back my immune system to its normal capacity and strength ! Second, stress should be out of my way ! Stress from the inside.. Third, I need time to reflect for the things that I failed to do and the things that I've did. And here it is K.W.A.M. , I AM TEMPORARILY BIDDING ADIEU TO ALL OF YOU ! 3Months I would not be seeing my Toddlers ! It would be a missing link in my daily routine since I was used to be with K.W.A.M. but it's really the need of the time. I was saddened.. The kids knew nothing about it. Oh ! Would they still acknowledge me as their teacher??? Would they asked if where am I ? I had a lot of questions. but one thing i am sure of... I WOULD BE MISSING MY STUDENTS.... be back soon!
These are Artjohn, Jen-jen, Jun-jun, Mac-mac, Lala & Judai, naughty yet they were all worthwhile.

~My First Challenge : On Madeline!~

It was the first day of school ( Sunday,Jan. 11, 2009) for this year 2009 for the street kids with a mission.

As we(the volunteers) were busy preparing for our lunch, on the other hand, number of kids were busy in their own thing. They arrived at church very very early! Wow ! What a good sign, isn't it?

And look who's been the punctual pupil??? Well, this cute little one on the picture was one of them. My 4year old toddler. Her name is Madeline.. I think she's just very excited. And yes she was! You could saw her in this photo as a very adorable one! Everybody would have love to have her around... As we were in the middle of our activity, her mood swings!

While some were having fun for the coloring activity, Madeline was used to be naughty, wanting to caught up your attention through her sweet smile, hug you around, etc. She would asked you many things but those time around, she's playing outside their place. Teacher Ivy called her attention with authority" Madeline? go back to your class!"..

Few minutes after, she's in the group yet of change behavior. She seemed angry with me??? I cannot make her follow what I would asked her to do. She started to throw me something! She seemed wanted to bite me! Oh my, what's happening to you Madeline?And later she cried out so loud ! I don't easily grasp what she's been feeling on to that hour..

She made to rock the boat for a few seconds? few minutes? Nope! It was almost an hour! Wow ! I felt like crying too for I do not know how to calm her down! I was not sure if I had done something wrong! I let Bidik & Pau make her stop from crying! But they too were not able to make her ease! It was a very terrible experience I ever had when she seemed very angry and she just cried, and cried and cried ! Oh my ! What should be the right thing to do? She seemed lost her most precious doll? We gave her water and yet she did not want.. We asked her what's wrong, she just answered crying!

And the class was not yet over, I had to focus on to the other kids for the next activity but my attention has been focused to Madeline's tantrums! I carried her through my arms ! She's just very heavy to carry with.. Few minutes later, i brought her to the stairs upward going to the Sunday School Classroom. We just sat there. This time, she's been very thirsty that at last she drank water already! Haaaaaaaayyyy ( Ang hirap nman pala maging Ina! hahaha!)


Ton - Ton teased me saying " You see Te Jen, that's how hard it is to be a mother!" Do you think she'd stopped crying this time? Precisely No! She continued her crying time! Later did I realize that she did not like to be scolded! And her mood started to swing when Te Ivy called her attention! Oh ! I understand how special Madeline was!

With endurance and patience, she started to lesser her crying tone from high to middle to low pitch when we returned to the toddlers' mat. And thank God ! She got her notebook already! Crying had gone at last ! And she started to wrote on her notebook the letter and stroke that she knew! At last! I was eased too ! It was hard yet it was fulfilling!

That was my first challenge was! I felt like giving up my temper but God gives me the strength more than I could ever imagine! What more can I ask for? Next Challenge???...

~ New Year, New Challenges~

It's been quite a time that I have not yet posted my thoughts with my days with Kids With A Mission.. Well, definitely, my busyness has something to do with it...

And it's new.. New chapter had come.. Last year was a bet better... I had made a new challenge for myself to surpass what I had achieved in the year 2008 for The street kids mission.... Not only to that but holistically ! I wanna make it best for this year for Him !


Though there were lots of things to reconsider but the old had been gone, the new has come.. All things are possible with God (Luke 1:37)...


To You God, I would be standing firm! For the kids to fully understand of who You are! To let them know You Jesus ! You are the unseen yet the ever present help in times of troubles!


It's been New! New Year! New Hope! New Challenges! New things to come! Everything would be New! There might be New Giants yet in You, there's New Strength! New Victories! In You, I offer my whole being Lord... I am more than conqueror.. Glory to You My Jesus!

~ Remembering Jesus ~

Part of " Remembering Jesus " celebration was the preparation of KWAM Volunteers to render a special number for our special and dearly loved students..

Would it be materialize? Can't you see them at the picture? They were all disorganized and oh it was already late at night? Teachers ! Please behave !
( James, Adi,Ton2x, Annge, Gian, Me, Jackie & Pau)

~ Baby Jesus, The Finale ~

My mind was getting busy thinking on the best idea for my Toddlers to efficiently participate with their own Party and Thanksgiving day few days more to go!... When December was already in its wings, I could not escape worrying since I still do not have any good presentation for them knowing the kids hyperactivity and behavior though we kept practicing on 1-2-3 song number and the Alphabet Song number, still I was not convince all of them would perform as I expected....


For two Sundays of rehearsal, only Jun - Jun and Juday got so very serious singing the song so well while others were just laughing, playing, talking, etc.. There were lots of unnecessary activities that had been done.. Nevertheless, we've finally have it all ! " Baby Jesus".. This was their presentation.. It was pretty good... They were participating and Oh we had a new comers... !...

Expected as it was, the kids were just naughty yet we still had a lot of fun though it was so tiring and patience should be there...!.. Thanks to my partner also for the support and assistance.. Teacher Bidik no return no retreat! that's a deal !..hahaha...

~Exhausted~

LAST SUNDAY, THAT WAS NOV. 30, 2008... WE'RE HAVING OUR PRACTICE FOR TODDLERS' PRESENTATION FOR THE UPCOMING PARTY BLAST...HEHE.. UNEXPECTEDLY, THE NUMBER HAD GROWN UP... I WOULDN'T EXPECT IT WOULD REACH 23 KIDS... SOME WERE NEW COMERS.. THE REST WERE THE USUAL GOERS....


HURRIEDLY FIXING THE PLATES, I CANNOT WAIT TO FINISHED IT... I GET BACK RIGHT AWAY TO THE KIDS... MANDY,ARTJOHN AND SAMAREDEN KEPT RUNNING AROUND THE PLACE.. NOISY AS THEY WERE... OTHERS BEHAVE WELL LIKE JOAQUIN... AND JEN-JEN WAS CRYING... OH MY ! WHAT'S HAPPENING IN HERE? I ASKED... AND EVERYBODY WASH THEIR HANDS.... HMMMPPPPP.... HOW COULD WE MAKE OUR PRESENTATION SMOOTHER???? OH ! I GOT AN IDEA....


LETTING EVERYONE TO GOES UPSTAIRS.... SUNDAY SCHOOL DEPARTMENT ROOM... WE OCCUPIED IT FOR THE TODDLERS TO HAVE A SECLUDED PRATICE... AND OH IT WAS PRETTY GOOD... SOME OF THEM FEELS BETTER.... LALA WAS LOOKING OUTSIDE THE WINDOW... SHE SAID " OH, ITS BEAUTIFUL"...HEHEHE... SHE SEEMED TO BE IN THE UPPER CASE OF THE ROOM...


STARTING THE PRACTICE, JUN-JUN AND JUDAY GOT A VERY ATTENTIVE EARS AND VERY WELL OBEDIENT...AT LAST ! I SIGH... I WAS WAITING FOR MY PARTNER ! TEACHER BIDIK ! GOT VERY LATE.. OH MY GOODNESS ! HEHEHE... I CAN NO LONGER CONTROL WHEN MANDY,ARTTJOHN, JOHNMARK AND SAMAREDEN KEPT ON TALKING, LAUGHING, BANGING WITH EACH OTHER, ETC.... THEY'RE MAKING ME INTIMADATED THOUGH I KEPT MY FACE STILL AT EASE.... HEHEHE...


LATER, TEACHER BIDIK ARRIVED WITH THE KIDS RUNNING AFTER HIM AT THE DOOR... GGGGRRRRRRRRRR! I FELT SHOUTING AT THEM... BUT HHMMPPP... CONTROL BUTTON PLEASE?.... THEY WERE FASCINATED TO SEE HIM... TEACHER WHAT'S HAPPENING????....


STILL, WE CANNOT CONTROL WHEN THE YOUNGER ONE WAS CRYING AND LATER HIS KUYA 'S CRYING TOO.... OH LORD ? WHAT MUST I DO??? JOAQUIN WAS CRYING TOO.... IT SEEMED A CIRCUS WITH MANY EXHIBITIONS... SOME WERE BUSY TALKING, OTHERS WERE LYING DOWN THE FLOOR... MJ WAS JUST BEHAVED... I CANNOT ESCAPE TO LOOSE MY GRIP TO KEEP ON SMILING...

I STAYED AT ONE SIDE SITTING AND FEELING SO TIRED AND EXHAUSTED... THAT WAS THE DAY EVER SINCE THAT I COULD NOT PREDICT... THE KIDS SEEMED SO HYPER AND ACTIVE TO THE POINT OF NOT FOLLOWING ANY INSTRUCTIONS AND SO ON AND SO FORTH....


STILL, THE GLORY BELONGS TO GOD THAT EVERYTHING WAS DONE ACCORDINGLY THOUGH I FELT CRYING THAT DAY!... HEHEHE... AN EXPERIENCE I WOULD FOREVER CHERISHED...

~ Just a glimpse ~

It was a very great Sunday afternoon with K.W.A.M. ( Nov.30,2008)... As we were eating our lunch with the "dried fish party blast", few minutes later the kids arrived. One after another and it was still past 12 noon.. Oh? they might be very excited ... It's been closer to their day ! Their party. We hurriedly eat our lunch and get back on the kids. I had 23 toddlers... Some were first timers. They were a bit noisy and naughty. And the group of Mandy,Artjohn, ans Samareden were complete! Wow ! they keep on running around...


It's been a great afternoon again!

~ Few more days to go ~

... Few more days to go and it will be the kids Recognition Day with the theme " Remembering Jesus". We had a great time with the Toddlers last November 23, 2008. It was our day to practice their presentation. Just a simple kiddie songs for everybody to participate. Jun - Jun was very eager to know. In fact, he and Lanie got the serious attention for their Christian Alphabet Song while everybody were just playing and roaming around. I was just glad that Jun- jun did improved a lot. He's one of my favorite kid..hehehe. Joaquin and Jason did not arrived. I remembered Joaquin cried last Sunday. A bit confious if that's the reason why he was not able to attend.....

Summarizing it up all, year 2008 will soon be ended... What was my achievement for God? I asked myself... Did I made everything for HIS Glory? or did I always count my days for my own satisfaction? Was I good enough for the kids ??? Are they learning something?... Oh well, I had enough myself to ponder and evaluate....


Rainbows color was clear and bright. It appears after the rain. That's what my Life goes this year. Though the hard came, a bright rainbow appeared.

~ I wish could be like them~

~ The kids were just having fun last Nov.16, 2008 with the film showing. A story about robots, Walle and Eve. Did robots have a heart to love??? hehehe.. That was the movie all about. The toddlers were just sitting when in the middle of the film some were laying down on the mat. They got so sleepy. i think the toddlers cannot relate with the story. Mac-mac came late, Mandy was very attentive, as well as Jun - jun, Juday got tired, Samareden played with Johnmark.. They got smile in their faces. A smile of happiness and fun.

And I did had much fun too though I was a little bit so-so ! Something's bothering my inner being. Emotion had taken me over! I did smile and could relate to the story but deep within me is a bleeding heart. It has been long chapter not to make another step of re-commitment to my first love with Jesus.

As I take a closer and deeper attention with the toddlers, there has been one wish in me that I knew it's far beyond reality. I wish I could be like them. They have a heart, so simple, they smiled, they play, they had their own happiness. Life with them is not as complicated as mine, their Teacher. I wish I could have a heart like these kids. Everything is just so simple. Nothing to worry, nothing to struggle with... For everything is just passing, fleeting, people may come surprisingly and they just go unexpectedly..

~ Update on WV affiliation ~

I was with my friend Amy in the tuna capital city of the Philippines talking about the erstwhile child- focus NGO we had been working together. Part of my trip to General Santos City was to see my former boss of World Vision Development Foundation, Inc. to formally asked for K.W.A.M.'s affiliation under its nest. Unfortunately, my purpose has not been fully meet since the premise had transferred to some place I did not know. As the bus passed by to its former location, I thought it was still WV's office that has been standing there.!. I'd arrived Saturday, Nov.08, 2008 at exactly 2:30 P.M. Though , I did not see them ( the bosses), the information that I got from Amethyst were still usefull for K.W.A.M. to be formally affiliated ! Yep ! The mere fact is, WV is now having an office here in Davao City, it was not clearly stated if it's just a satellite or what but what is important is they are not far and beyond at hands ! Some other time, I will try to make a research and a visit to WV - Davao! kita kits !

~ Valley of Fear ~

Take a look at this beautiful bird. He seems wondering why he's been walking alone in the beach. I think he's a bit sad ! It's sounds familiar ! hehehe.. The last class I had with the KWAM kids was very tiring since most of the kids were hyper! they kept on running around, behave for a while and then got back to their normal behavior, that is, playing with the other one, talking, laughing, asking many things like water, food, going to C.R.,etc. I was just pondering and deep within me was this "What if these kids are my real kids?" ... huhuhu! I could not imagine how it would be going ! ggrrr When it's time for them to have their snacks, I'd stared at each of their faces! I was just glad to have many of them growing! And here goes my fear over and over again ! What if I destined to be alone? Simply gifted as " SINGLE"? huh ! God forbid ! haha!... Honestly, that was my FEAR ! I just cannot escape the reality that everything is possible as planned by the Master Planner ! And currently my heart is battling over it! Expecting, hoping and waiting ! And a week ago somebody said to me " Jen, know your time clock!" gggrrrr ! Yep I get what's her point is but I cannot do things as others wanted it to happen on me ! I am just simply Jenny ! I cannot be like the other girl or somebody ! And her comes my Circle of Influence (COI) that includes my family, friends, acquiantances, etc. trying to justify what had been going on me! why I am still ???? still ??? do not have someone? coz for them it seemed that I was keeping things behind ! Let it be ! Contrasting to their point of view that I should have been doing a move? huh ! I just cannot did it ! My goodness ! And having all of these pressures around me, the environment that sorrounds me, the more it triggers up my Valley of Fear ! Fear of being alone ! ( Good Lord , You are my Provider!) I will just wait and see ! And you too people must keep quite and you'll see ! hmmpp..u

~ The Teacher Is Out ~

I'll be leaving from my Toddler's Class this Sunday, November 09, 2008.It's my one day leave for somewhere..hehehe I just need to refresh myself with the new environment and new place. I just felt exhausted! Oooopppsss ! not with the K.W.A.M. but with my current heavy loads..!.. The load which i continually battling over my head down to my feet! hehehe.. Nope ! It would be a day for me to went back to the place where my first love was HIM ! do you know HIM??? lol HIM is my bestfriend and my comforter. When I felt lonely and sad, it's HE that first knew it.. hehehe.. It was in GSC where my first ever loved was JESUS ! And it's been five years already that I haven't been gone there! So, I am a little bit excited seeing the place and my ertshwhile officemates and the office of course ! Purposely, I intend to visit World Vision to ask about affiliation. Just to inquire if K.W.A.M. would be affiliated. At the same time, it's ARTCHIE UY's wedding day ! Gosh ! Congrats Manang ! I was glad you finally had it.. huhuhuhu.. I will follow you!hahaha.. Sooner or later.. However, while I am out, somebody must be in ! Wheeeewww ! It's your turn TEACHER BIDIK ! .. hehehe.. Caution : Do not play with the kids ! hehe (just kidding!). I was just busy preparing the things that I ought must to leave at the locker before I finally left. I did prepared the coloring pages, copy of the Lifeboat Story, Social Studies Subject, etc.. I think that would be enough for the kids to know a bit and for Teacher Bidik to felt it easy while I am not around ! hahaha.. It's your time to shine! ... get ready for i'll be filling another long leave then ! hehe

~ One Great Afternoon ~

It's one great afternoon for me yesterday, November 02, 2008. Another time to teach the kids, The Toddlers of K.W.A.M. I'd programmed myself to continued last week's long quiz for my kids but Oh my! November 02 is still the All Saints Day ! A day where the world 's celebrating in behalf of the long lost love ones! And it might be the kids were few ! Nonetheless, as it's time to start the class kids were coming in gradually! MJ and Lanie were still the early birds. Mark Jason was then transferred to Teacher Angge's class. Adieu Mark Jason! wheeeeeeeewwww ! My fast learner's decreasing...hmmmm.. I had my new pre-school black board ! yeheeey ! I no longer write my subject at the Manila Paper where it would easily be torn.. !.. Thanks for the big heart of Teacher Bidik and the Vengano Family! Another round of applause to my Partner ! tsskkk ! tssskkk!... Oh well, here comes this new kid named Mandy ! Oh Mandy ! hehehe.. when I asked him his complete name, he then answered " My Name is Monday Tuesday ! " he then smile and I was laughing out loud ! LOL ! hehehe.. He seemed to be naughty ! I cannot control him ! he runs to and fro ! He roam around towards the other class ! Playing with Samareden ! That makes the whole class very uncontrollable ! ggrrrr! Then we sang the A-B-C , 1-2-3, etc. making them all participative... Like the surging of the waves were their behavoir, you tried to calm but it won't... yet when the meriendas were almost there, they all got behave... hhmmm.. naughty kids ! I was getting tired after the class but it's all worth it! It's one great afternoon with the new comer, Mandy! hehe